Feeling Totally Despondent

I am feeling completely overwhelmed and unhappy at work. I am loosing confidence in my abilities and I am noticely irritable and depressed. My workload is humongous and I don't feel like doing it anymore. I used to take pride in my work and enjoyed coming to work everyday but I feel totally unappreciated which is making me demotivated.

Its making me less productive and totally ineffective in my work. I feel I'm getting no kick back at all from working so damn hard for this company. I get no thanks for my efforts andI feel totally inadequate. I can't do enough. I get no praise for a job well done but get crapped on from a dizzy height when something hasn't been done.

Yesterday when I got home I was so tearful, totally exhausted and so down. Last night I couldn't sleep, I kept waking up with either heart palpitations or a runny tummy...I feel like my head is going to explode. Its such an out-of-control feeling. I am not coping.

I just thank God for my boerewors and my girls. Without them I can't imagine where I'd be.

*in tears again*