Thursday, 28 June 2012

How to Make Miracles

Yesterday I was going through our external hard drive with a friend looking for old pictures for her and I came across my girls' newborn photos and was overwhelmed with emotions.  It brought back many memories and feelings.  It made me realize how awesome it is being a mum, being a parent. 

Its the most rewarding and yet the most daunting job in the world!  If you gave me the choice of being rich and famous or having my wee family.  I would choose family EVERY time.  I love my job as a mum as every day is never the same and each stage of my girl's life is a celebration.

When I fell pregnant with Megan I had no clue what I was in for.  No clue!  I was one of those young girls who never did any baby sitting, I turned into one of those women who never got broody when a baby was near.  I wouldn't coochy coochy coo and pinch cheeks.  I would think those women who did that were all a wee bit loopy and wondered what all the fuss was about.  I wondered if I would ever have a motherly instinct that would "kick in" when I gave birth to my wee button.

Turns out that I went into pre-term labour at 35 and a half weeks and Megan was born after only 5 hours of labour and an epidural.  She was a healthy  2.6kg.  I was in love instantly. The second she was put in my arms and I said to my Boerewors "We made Her!  Isn't it a miracle?". 

Within an hour of being born Megan was whipped away from me as she was having trouble breathing and taken to NICU. 

Wee Froggie
She had a hole in her lung! 

Within only hours of her being born she developed double pneumonia and a day after that she got jaundice and had to sunbathe under the lights for a few days.  My brand new baby had to be tube fed as her sucking reflex wasn't quite there yet. 

Sun-bathing for her jaundice

The stress of leaving the hospital the following day after giving birth to my perfect little girl with an empty carry cot, broke my heart!  The next two weeks were a daze, worrying, no sleep, traveling back and forward to the hospital for feeds, to cuddle her, to just hold her hand and stroke her hair.  All I wanted to do was take her home.  After two weeks, we got to take her home and it was the happiest day of my life!  I could watch her, touch her, kiss her, 24-7 and she was the most beautiful little person (in my eyes of course).

Her First Bottle - 6 days old
Megan was a very easy baby after this and I considered us lucky.  She slept through the entire night at 7 weeks and she never had any illnesses worse than a cold or flu.


Kaylin, just born
....Kaylin came along! 

KK was born at 37 weeks on the dot and was the tiniest little person I'd ever seen!  Another fast labour of 4 and a half hours and with no drugs (even though I wanted them) it happened all too fast so everything was all natural! 

I couldn't believe I done it all on my own with no drugs and when I held her in my arms she looked like a wee doll.  She was only 2kg - even the X-prem clothes were too big for her.

However, despite her being even smaller than Megan's birth weight she had no medical complications, I walked from the labour ward to my ward bed with Kaylin and went home after 30 hours in the hospital. 

Kaylin in her daddy's hand

Sisters meet for the first time

Kaylin one week old alongside one of Megan's dolls. 
She was teeny weeny!!!

However things were soon to change....

Kaylin was a happy, but sickly newborn and suffered from reflux and for a teeny wee person she could hurl puke at you with deadly accuracy.  It would fountain from her miniature mouth with great force and then she'd smile afterwards.

Her first hospital visit was when she was only 12 weeks old and yet she smiled!

After that it was in and out of the hospital for the next two years with various things including pneumonia, chest infections, raging temperatures, Rosella, chronic bronchitis, etc the list goes on.

After many doctors and specialist visits, we eventually went to a HomeoTech who discovered Kaylin was very stressed out and had a dairy intolerance.  But she STILL beamed that unforgettable smile.

Cows milk was banned in our house and we swapped to Soy products.  After that, she went from strength to strength.  Her appetite improved and she ate everything in sight.  I always joke about Kaylin that if you sprinkle sugar on shite, she'd eat it.  She really isn't a fussy eater and after Megan who still eats like a bird - it was a God send.

Kaylin with Chicken Pox
After all we've been through with these two little girls, I couldn't love them enough.  They make me smile, they make my heart warm, they bring me such joy.  I want to kiss and hug them to death and I can't stop telling them how much I love them and how special they are. 

When I think about how we made them from scratch, how they grew in my belly from a tiny seed into a wee person,  how I gave birth to them and watch them cut the cord that attached us together... 

We've watched them grow and develop everyday and it still blows me away!  I still can't believe how perfect and beautiful they are.  Every child is a complete miracle and each one so completely different.

My two precious gifts from above and my Boerewors who is my precious gift down here. 

These three people are my everything. 

I am in awe of them everyday and I couldn't be happier. 

Nothing could possibly be more fulfilling than being someone's Mum.

Who knew two little girls would change my world forever?

My Wonderful Girls....


Blasé said...

Y'all had quite a scare at the beginning. Very fortunate.

Don't is always changing, it never stays the same.


Marcelle said...

Loved this entry, can feel your love for your girls and hubby, its very beautiful. Thanks for sharing your time before we knew you with us...they sure are treasures.....and yes, YOU ARE BLESSED.

blueviolet said...

Gillian, I'm so glad the girls quickly improved health wise and that everything turned out so well. And, you three are such beautiful ladies!

Brian Miller said...

and through it all you are blessed...that almost brought tears to my eyes...

Laura said...

What a stunning post.

Beautiful family you have Gillian!

Enchanted Oak said...

Dear Scots Lass, your story of your little girls is simply beautiful. How blessed you know yourself to be with your family, it makes my heart soar for you. Thank you for participating in the simple things challenge for Haiti. It does us all good to remember how much we are blessed.
Chris from Enchanted Oak.

Matty said...

Children by their nature are very special. When they enter the world with problems and recover from them, they are that much more special. Your motherly instincts came out the day they were born. And they are dolls.

cat said...

Oh wow, you had a tough start with both the girls. I also have hospital pics up today - how weird.

Nocturnal Queen said...

I'm sorry your girls went through health problems, but I'm so glad they're fine today. They were such beautiful babies and are still beautiful.

This was a lovely entry. :-)

Tracey said...

Wow! You've had a lot of trials with your sweeties. I'm glad they are healthy and well now. No job can compare to the one of being a mom, huh? It's the hardest job in the world and the payment is in hugs and kisses.
We're both truly blessed to be moms.

Green-Eyed Momster

KK said...

Awwww... :)

janie said...

'tis the strongest deepest purest love of them all....our children make us feel like we're going to burst with pride , they bring out such protectiveness (like lionesses!), it tears at our heartstrings when they are sad / hurt .... am glad you got to feel it Gillian , for a while there I thought you would miss out !!

Benitta said...

I recently came across your blog and have been reading along. I thought I would leave my first comment. I don't know what to say except that I have enjoyed reading. Nice blog. I will keep visiting this blog very often.


angel said...

What a touching post. When I read about how people battled with their little babies with illness and hospitalisation, I am so very grateful that I never had hassles like that with my knucklehead.

Stephen Tremp said...

Three cheers! Best post of the day. Of the month actually. Thanks for sharing with us and God Bless those Megan and Kaylin!

momto8blog said...

wow! how scary of a start!! My first 4 babies were zero 5th baby was very very ill...and the source of our conversion as a family....have 8 healthy happy kids now...thank God!!
I am your newest follower..pls follow back if you can.

Renae said...

awhh, thanks for sharing those precious memories! We love those heart warming stories of life, challenges and success - huh? (hug) said...

What a rollercoaster of emotions. It's really heartwarming to read your story and to know you feel so blessed. You really are, and so are your darling daughters.


Bailey Schneider said...

What a wonderful, heart warming post! Your girls are absolutely beautiful!!
Well done Mom!
Much love, Bailey from Vanilla Blonde

Jackie K said...

Your girls are just gorgeous

Lovely Light said...

This post is one of the sweetest I've read in a long while! You are very blessed.


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