I could easily have drop-kicked my children out the car yesterday morning on the way to bring them to school.
Don't get me wrong, I love my wee lassies with every fibre of my being but sometimes they press my buttons and I turn into a foaming-at-the-mouth fiend. It's not fucking pretty and I get into a head-space where I could effortlessly sell them for wine money at the drop of a hat.
If you’re a parent you know exactly what I’m talking about.
When you have nagged your precious angels for the sixth time to brush their teeth and you literally have to drag them away from the telly kicking and screaming, and you’re inches away from blowing a gasket. You bite your lip and pray to Jesus to give you strength but the prayers aren’t answered directly.
You begin raising your voice and banging cupboard doors, stomping around and your children look at your bewildered and wide-eyed, as if to say, ”where did THIS all come from?”
Clearly, the expressions on their tiny faces clarify that they don’t understand, but somehow they know that they’ve crossed the line and you’re freaky the fuck out.
At this point there is no turning back. You’re ranting about everything and saying things that make no sense to children. You’ve officially turned into a beasty monster . The children have become quiet and you’re getting louder.
Then once you’ve exploded and dropped them off at school, the guilt kicks in.
Riddled with blame, because you couldn’t hold it together and suck it all up, like you do every other day. Remorse that you couldn’t stay in control and handle it like a responsible adult.
Your heart hurts and regret bleeds from your eyes.
The mood lasts the entire day.
I Thank the Lord we are two parents during these times.
You need the other parent to lean on, to take over when you feel you’re not in control anymore. The other person who prevents you from making the sale.
Sale, you ask?
The sale to sell your offspring for whiskey or hard drugs. Neither of which I even like.
and now on to happier times....some pretty shoes.
I thought this week I'd share shoes in my favourite colour. Orange. Ooooo baby, who can stand it??
|Christian Louboutin - my favourite shoe designer|
|Sexy Strappy Sandals $34.99 at ShoeOcean|
|Carvela Azalia from Shoe Fanatic|
|Jeffrey Campbell ‘Garret’|
|Groovy Orange Heels|